I sincerely apologize for not posting HMP on scheduled date, I was overwhelmed with work. Thanks to all that reached out to me ! Once again I apologize…
This post is dedicated to Zino
She walked slowly down the aisle, heart racing wildly.She looked around at friends and a few family members sited before her gaze finally focused on a smiling Leroy.
She almost remembered the pains she had been forced to endure when she found out he had been cheating on her and had gotten someone pregnant especially as he never ever forgot to use a condom with her. But that was all in the past. She forced herself to focus on the changed person he has been in the past 6 month and the other times in her 3 years with him when she was still delusional and had thought him to be the best man she could possibly have.
“Sexy bride! go baby”She smiled when she heard her friend cheer.
It was a very small gathering, they had both decided to have a quiet ceremony in Italy and she couldn’t have been more glad. She finally got to Leroy’s side and gave him her mega watt smile.
The preacher began:
“Lord, behold our family and friends assembled;We thank you for this place in which we dwell; for the love that unites us; for the peace accorded us this day; for the hope with which we expect the morrow. Amen”
“Amen” came the response, breaking the silence.
“We are gathered here today to celebrate the union between two special people; Shade Lawson and Leroy Attah”.The preacher announced in a loud happy voice smiling as he faced her direction
She smiled back at him, excited yet afraid at the prospect of being Mrs. Shade Attah. She caught Leroy staring at her and gave him a wink .
“Just before they say their vows and I talk about this wonderful couple, I will like us to see a short video of Shade’s and Leroy inspiring love story”.
“It was put together by our lovely bride Shade; to show how much she loves her husband to be; Leroy”
There was clapping and cheering as the preacher stepped aside. The light in the beautiful, tastefully decorated hall dimmed and the screen came alive.
Ed Sheeran, Thinking Out Loud played softly in the background, as pictures rolled out on the screen.
When your legs don’t work like they used to before
And I can’t sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?And, darling, I will be loving you ’til we’re 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I’m thinking ’bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me – I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I amSo honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I’m thinking out loud
Maybe we found love right where we are….
Leroy squeezed her hands. Tears burnt her eyes as she remembered the wonderful times she had with Leroy in the past.
“I love you” Leroy whispered against her ears, nuzzling it.
She giggled in response. “Boo there’s enough time for this, watch…
The picture continued to change on the screen, the music played quietly in the background, and someone read out the heart touching love history of Shade and Leroy. It was a beautiful love story indeed, better than the numerous love soap opera’s that occupied various television channels. The song changed to Unconditionally by Katy Perry and the pictures did as well. It was now showing the belly of a pregnant woman , and the ultra scan of a foetus.
“Are you pregnant?” his voice shivered as he faced her.
“Maybe, Maybe not”.
“Shade what are you hiding from me?”
“Nothing boo, don’t you want to be a father?”
“Of course I do. Are you really pregnant?”
“Hey baby,don’t fuss. I promise not to hide anything from you. okay? just watch…”
“Okay. I trust you” he replied looking into her eyes for a long time, before gradually taking her lips into his.
The slow tender kiss was rudely interrupted by the sudden change in song and the increase in tempo. She watched in delight as Leroy quivered, he did not even realize that his mouth was opened .
Now showing was a video of her and several girls playing on the beach and taking selfies. Gradually each of the girls disappeared leaving behind a pregnant deceived Jahzara and a stupid Shade who hadn’t realised her boyfriend of 3 years was cheating on her.
Katy Perry’s, Roar song made the message clear for the intelligent ones , Obviously not Leroy’s cousins nor his parents for they were still smiling .If only they knew what was in stock for him….
“I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath”
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agree politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything
“You held me down, but I got up (HEY!)”
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up (HEY!)
Get ready ’cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now…
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me roar
He was everything Andrew was not and more; yet she was not physically attracted to him. she was unable to connect with him the way she did with Andrew even though she tremendously enjoyed everything about him.
She sighed. It’s been six month since she last heard from Andrew; even though Jason had been there for her the past six month, listening and attending to her, challenging her to be better and focused, filling her days with care and attention, she still felt a deep void in her heart. To avoid hurting him, she masked her feelings, after all if Andrew loved her he would not leave without getting in touch for six month.
As usual, her thoughts countered her .”Who asked him to leave when he had come begging the next day? who slammed the door in his face after saying he was nothing but a figurine and was lacking in love? Who said he lacked the wisdom to deal with a woman and treat her right? Who said he was better off gay so other women would not fall victim of him? who had slapped and then spat at him just….”.
She shut her mind from remembering the awful words she had thrown at Andrew’s face when he came begging, and that was the last time she heard from him. There was a great turmoil going on in her head, it was her birthday today, instead she was moping; thinking of Andrew. She couldn’t keep up with the pretense anymore, she didn’t think she had the energy to go out with anyone today. She was supposed to hang out with friends at a resort, show off her sexy body, jet ski, gossip and get tipsy with the girls, take lot of pictures and post them on Instagram, creating an illusion that she had her life wrapped at her finger tips when in reality she was drowning in a sea of confusion and experiencing the burns from the fire of love.
Jason was adorable, generous, sensitive, patient, every woman’s ideal man, but not she “Zoe”. She liked the big bad wolf and like never before she craved for poison, she wanted Andrew.
“How’s your boo?” Her friend had asked one day over the phone.
“He is coming soon by the grace of God”. She had replied.
“Which one is coming again? Zoe you are lucky, if I saw a guy like Jason I don’t think I will ask God for anything else cos’ having that kind of a guy is a multiple blessing. You better hold him tight”.
She was speechless, yeah she would admit Jason was exceptional but she liked him as a friend and nothing more. She was starting to feel abnormal. “Why couldn’t she just see Jason as a lover?”, “Why couldn’t her nipples harden at his touch? Why didn’t she crave to be kissed by him even though he had kissable lips and a kind soul? Why did she love him as a best friend instead ? It was time to speak to Jason and confront him about this feelings .She hoped it was mutual, one thing she didn’t want was to waste anyone’s time or falsely lead them on.
“Babe open up”. She heard the sound of her friends voice as they banged on her door. There was no escape this time, no time for moping or thinking of her man palava, at least she had good friends, that should be enough and worth being grateful for.
“Joyeux anniversaire! Beaucoup de courage! D’amour et de joie!”
“Happy Birthday girl, I love you from the earth to the moon and back!”
Kisses, hugs, more kisses and more hugs; Zoe forgot about her worries, except that she had to call Jason tonight and prepare for a friends wedding.
As she walked out with her girls, she secretly wished she would perhaps jam into Andrew.
The light came up, the screen went off , people quietened, the tension was palpable, building up to a point where it became possible to slice it with a knife. It was cold yet droplets of sweat rolled down Leroy’s face. She watched with satisfaction as smiles changed to confusion.
Jahzara boldly walked to the podium in all her grace and beauty. Her long sparkling hair flowed down her neck, the color nicely complimenting her healthy skin.
“Hello everyone, first of all I am happy for the great opportunity to be here in Italy to witness Leroy and Shade’s union. I live in Omar, so when Shade told me she would be having a destination wedding I was beyond excited, I saw it as an opportunity to be adventurous”. She chuckled.
“Thank you all for honoring my friends invite. Some of you crossed oceans , sea’s and continents to be here…”
Shade secretly spied at an agitated Leroy sited beside her. “Hey boo are you Okay?”
When he did not respond immediately, she poked his sides,causing him to jump.
Shade smiled. “Revenge is sweet when served cold, especially when caught unawares”. She thought. She did not bother repeating her question.
“Asshole”. She muttered under her breath.
“I happen to know the groom and bride very well, in fact I am a part of their love history “. Jahzara continued.
“Hmm”. came the response from the small crowd, they were eager to hear more. Some of them were sited at the edge of their sit.
“I played the role of a side chick to Leroy,even though I was made to believe I was the main chick”.
Leroy your groom and I started dating two years ago”Jahzara paused, giving space for people to talk.
She was about to continue when Leroy stood and began to shout. Before he got to her, some security men came and bundled him away. They brought him back to the front of the podium, gagged and tied to a chair.
“Hi Leroy”. Jahzara teased.
Karis recorded the event, Shade smiled and Zoe cried as if it concerned her.
“Where did I stop, before I was rudely interrupted..” She smirked.
“I remember, thanks but no thanks for not reminding me”. She laughed to herself in a drunken manner.
“Leroy gave me a false name, he promised to marry me, he said he was preparing to relocate to Omar even after I insisted that I would like to relocate to his country . I caught him cheating on me twice and I forgave him”
I gave him a surprise visit and that was when I met Shade and Karis. You’ll be surprised to know that I met them on the road, then Karis came all the way to see me in Omar to explain everything to me.”
“Of course I knew Karis was saying the truth because Leroy had not taken my surprise visit well. In fact I angrily left the next day when another girl came knocking on his door. Mind you this was another girl not Shade.”
Shade was shocked. She trembled in anger, walked to Leroy and gave him a slap, then walked to Jahzira to give her a hug.
“Thanks”. She whispered before going back to sit.
“Thank your stars Leroy. Be happy that you lost a thousand dollars and maybe your reputation; I was going to mess you up big time;but for Shade who pleaded on your behalf. She would have made you a good wife but you chose to mess up”
She faced the small crowd of about hundred people who were in shock.
“So he doesn’t say I am lying, please watch Leroy and I love story.
The light dimmed one more time, showing Leroy and Jahzira’s love story. From the pictures, Shade began to wonder maybe she was the side chick instead.
“Karis I am feeling bad for Leroy’s mum, she is really crying”. Shade whispered to Karis, who was now sited beside her.
“I advice you take your eyes off her, what should Jahzara do then? Knowing the father of her unborn child is a pervert”.Karis retorted Angrily.
“I already planned a boat trip for us, we would tour Italy and have fun. I got someone to cover this event, upload it on every social media available and a few newspapers. From here we would go to Dubai”. Karis said.
“For your information, Leroy would be broke for a while”.
“Really? why do you say so?” Shade asked.
“Jahzara and I spoke to some people, he wouldn’t be getting too many contracts this year”.
“You guys are crazy”. She laughed.
“Trust me, we are helping out, We think the excess cash he has is what’s making him an international playboy.
“I hope I still have your attention” Jahzara cooed.
“I would like y’all to help yourself to a glass of one of the best wine ever, all payed for by our dear Leroy.
Jahara signaled to Shade, It was her turn to speak. She majestically walked to face the shocked audience, received a glass of wine from a waiter nearby she began:
“Don’t dare judge me, Don’t even let me hear you say I should have left everything to God because I gave Leroy a chance to say the truth several times,but he took me for a fool and kept lying. He wasted three fucking years of my life. Everyone! please raise your glass up let’s give a toast”.
“Cheers to the Master player, International pervert, a man worthy of a Grammy , I thank God I was able to escape his lies and deceits. I would have called him a son of a bitch but I know his mother. Cheers Leroy for a stunning show, it’s time to take a bow.
Trust Karis to play the right songs, What song would have been more befitting to close the ceremony if not “Take a bow” by Rihanna.
It was time for Shade to meet the love of her life, Nathan. They had been friends for years but she never considered him as a lover until five months ago. In fact, he had supported her in her plan to deal with Leroy for taking her on a false ride. She would be getting married to him in four months she was not cut out for long relationships anymore. Plus didn’t they say marry your best friend?
Her birthday was fun, and NO she didn’t meet Andrew. She was on her way back to the hotel with her friends, her tummy shook in fear as she thought of the onerous task ahead of her. She pretended to sleep but her mind was super active as she rehearsed how the phone conversation with Jason will go. She couldn’t ask any of her friends for advice because to them Jason was the best and she was not allowed to complain.
“Hello Jason, I did not mean to friend zone you but it just happened”
“Please tell me I am also in your friend zone?
“Hey love, wake up. We are at your hotel”. Her friend shook her , interrupting the rehearsal going on in her mind.
“Thanks girls, thank you for making my birthday a blast”.
And she walked into her room after several goodbye kisses and hugs. Now alone, she faced her struggle. She was just thinking of procrastinating when his call came through.
“Talk of the devil” . She muttered before picking up
“Hey babe” His voice came over the phone, reminding her of how good he had been to her and how she was about to break his heart. She couldn’t reply for her heart was in her mouth.
“Karis? Are you fine?”
“Talk to me? I have been worried about you all day.I don’t know why?”.
“Do you want me to come?”
Her heart melted further at she heard the concern in his voice. She did not want to hurt someone as nice and sensitive as Jason, for a response she broke down in tears. Like a gentleman, he kept quiet,allowing her to cry to her heart content.
“I want Andrew”. She spilled, her planned speech totally forgotten.
“Okay, that’s normal. Is that the reason for the tears dear?”
“I miss what we did on my last birthday, I mean the things we do on each others birthday”.
“Hmmm I guess, you mean to say, usually you have birthday sex with Andrew but this time there’s no Andrew to give you that. Is that correct?”.
She was surprised that he could analyse the situation correctly even though she had not given him enough information.
“Yes” she replied sulkily.
“That’s normal dear, don’t be too hard on yourself. What would you say you miss the most? Andrew or The sex?”
She laughed at his question. She hadn’t thought of separating sex and Andrew.
“I don’t know? Is that bad?”. She asked.
Truth be told she was afraid to lose Jason even though she had earlier said she only connected with him as a friend and not as a lover.
She wanted to eat her cake and have it; pleasure from the devil and the constant unfailing support from an Angel.
“It’s okay not to know what you want” . He laughed.
“In fact, I would say if you don’t know what you want and you know that you don’t know what you want then you are many steps ahead of someone who is confused but doesn’t know. You’ll be fine I believe”.
“Thanks Jason, you’re God sent. I feel better already. So you don’t feel bad or what..?
“Feel bad about what?” He asked.
Confusion flooded her mind, drowning her deeper in doubts and more questions. She had hoped and prayed that he would see her as a friend,but now she was hoping that he would at least get a little bit jealous because she missed Andrew. She didn’t need him to be a perfect gentle man or to be understanding and considerate every time. And once again her mind countered her;
“But Andrew had his good and part why did you leave him? “Who asked him to leave when he had come begging the next day? who slammed the door in his face after saying he was nothing but a figurine and was lacking in love? Who said he lacked the wisdom to deal with a woman and treat her right? Who had said he was better off gay so other women would not fall victim of him? who had slapped and then spat at him just….”.
Truly her man palava was great.. Andrew or Jason ?
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